mentoring

have you ever done something and at first you were psyched cuz you were sure you'd be awesome at it, and then you're in the middle of it and you realize that you stink at whatever it is? well, i've totallly felt that way this past year... completley and utterly incompetent. i started mentoring two boys at a local school in january, and i was soo excited. but then, i started realizing that i'm not as smart as i think i am and i would get so frustrated with myself because i couldn't think of ways to explain words and questions in easier terms, or there was one time i "helped" my boy miss every question on a computer quiz!! ugh! but as the year has gone by, i think i've learned a lot. i've learned that it isn't important how much you know, but how much you give. the boys didn't care that i don't know all the answers, they just care that i'm there. as the year went on and it got harder and harder, i kept pushing, and today, as my last day of mentoring, was so rewarding. i really feel like i made a difference, not a big one, but one that tells those boys that someone cares about them. i'm glad that i stuck with 2 corinthians 8:11-12, my theme verses for olivet... let your enthusiastic idea at the start be equalled by your realistic action now. if you are really eager to give of yourself, then it isn't important how much you have to give. God wants you to give what you have, not what you haven't. i wish mentoring wasn't over... i love those boys, it was an awesome semester with them! thanks, prof laraue for this opprotunity.