it's been a month!!

wow.

incredible that an entire month can go by without my updating of this blog. there once was a time when i was addicted to it... i guess growing up can change everything, huh?

i've been thinking alot lately about growing up.
and i still don't want to do it.
but i am. regardless of how much i want to be back at olivet... it is over. :)

this past month has brought a lot of changes for me...

-i've been living with my aunt nancy. she's awesome... and there's this other lady rhonda living with us as well. it's nice to live in a "house" and not a dorm room... yet i struggle with my longing for my own little apartment. i'm living with her while i seek out a job and save up to get my own apartment... so hopefully by the end of the year that struggle will be over! :) but ah, aunt nancy is such a blessing to me. God is good, isn't He? :)

-i'm working like ALL THE TIME!! ;) i have two part-time jobs... which really together has me working more than full time. i just started this past week at panera bread. i really like it. i'm working there during the days and then i work at barnes and noble in the evenings. i still LOVE that job. i could work for barnes and noble forever!! (i won't though, don't worry mom!) ;)

-i'm making plans!! i'm seeking out a full time job in social work and anticipate that i'll still work a part time job on the side, but i'd love to find a job down in southern indiana (near the hot fellow in my life, ryan) and i've been beginning to look in columbus and madison, indiana. it would be awesome if i could find a job and an apartment by the first week of december!! we'll see what happens...

and really other than that i'm just living.

i continue to struggle with consistency in my relationship with God... i have this crazy feeling that that struggle will never go away. just when i think i've got it down and i'm chuggin' away spending time with Him in the Word, i lose my focus and suddenly i haven't taken time for Him in several days. it's so frustrating!! yet, i will continue to fight this battle and someday i will be victorious and i will be consistent!!

i miss people.
i miss olivet.
this weekend i was able to see before tomorrow lead worship at seymour first church of the nazarene.. and it was SOO good just to see tyler and chris and wes and liz and courtney and harold and abby and just hug them!! ah... i miss them!! this coming weekend ryan and i are taking some teenagers from his youth group to olivet and i can't WAIT to see jonathan and kate and b-train and mellow and rainsyl!! and THEN!!! ahh!! the very next weekend ryan and i are journeying south to nashville where my best friend amy and her hot husband chris have been living since the last time i saw them... their wedding day june 14, 2008. i am SO excited to see everyone!! life after college is a hard adjustment. it's weird to live in a place where i know no one and for a long time i was just working at barnes and noble with people a lot older than me (most of them have retired from something and just need something to do!!)... so i've really struggled with that. but once again, God is good... i'm so excited about the young crazy people i work with at panera, and i've been so blessed with my friend ryan and i have so many opportunities to see people these next weeks that yeah, i have nothing to complain about!! :) God is good... all the time!! and all the time... God is good!!

i have some pictures to post from this past month... but i can't do that at the moment as i'm at work!! so follow up soon and you'll get some good hot shots!! i love you!! have a great day!