quick little update...

so... i dropped my ryan off in korea yesterday!! :) that is, i dropped him off at the airport in detroit. we had such a great time visiting family and celebrating christmas with our families... and were both sad and excited for him to go to korea!! he should be getting there as i type now, so be praying for him as he's there for a month teaching bible and english to junior high kids. he's gonna have a blast!! :) in the meantime, this week is pretty huge for me... i'm moving to north vernon on friday and am searching for a job and an apartment before he gets back january 26th! hopefully i'll find one and i'll keep you updated... but pray for me too, cuz i'm so anxious and incredibly nervous about the move and job search!! hope you had a merry christmas!! :)

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honestly, i have a hard time updating this blog.

it's almost as if the words i write on this page i want to be encouraging, uplifting, informative, enlightening and lately (as in the past several months) i simply do not feel as if i have anything to share. my life consists of the same: working 40 hours a week, visiting my hot boyfriend on the weekends, sleeping, eating, working out, and trying to get ready to move to indiana again. the problem that keeps me from posting: i've struggled with life lately. i'm terrified of not finding a job, of making a huge move and then finding myself somewhere doing something without purpose. i feel far from God as i struggle with consistency, with prayer, with listening for his voice and following. and i don't know, i haven't had time to check the news or think up interesting things to write about... and i don't have a faithful internet connection, so i have a hard time putting pictures up!! yesterday, however, in the midst of my worry and near hyperventilation about having bought a new cell phone and anticipation of bills and loans and no job and a major move, a lady at work shocked me. i didn't even know she knew Jesus!! and she says to me: "you know kara, sometimes you can just pray and pray about something and God never clearly says 'Move here' or 'Take this job' or 'Do this', He simply provides you opportunity to take a big step and then lets you decide if you'll do it. so the question here is: are you going to take that big step? you don't have to. but you can!" ah lori, thank you so much for those words. my response? "ok, God. i'm freaking out. again. not new to you, huh? but i'm going to take the step, make the move, and trust that you'll come through and provide for me." God is faithful. always. i can trust Him.

as i wrote this, my sweet new phone slash music player sang this song to me... how fitting!

my soul is weak, my heart is numb
i cannot see! still my hope is found in You
i'll hold on tightly: You will never let me go
Jesus You will never fail, Jesus You will never fail!

simply to the cross i cling
letting go of all earthly things
i'm clinging to the cross!
mercy's found a way for me
hope is here as i am free
Jesus You are all i need
i'm clinging to the cross!

insha'allah (God willing) i'll post again soon.
for my sweet thanksgiving weekend details, check out ryan's site. it was a great week!