Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Three Years

Three years ago today, Brad Gallup got peed on my a camel.

Ha ha.

The most important and best part of the story, though, 
is that his step-son, Ryan Goode, married me.


He picked me!


I'm so glad that he did!


And I would marry him all over again!!



Happy Anniversary, babers.  I love you!  
Thanks for marrying me!!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Words for Thought...

"Don't allow criticism to slow you down or lower your self-esteem. In our everyday lives we are sure to encounter some sort of criticism. It is how we take criticism that matters. Think of it as something positive, at least you are important enough to some people, for them to take the time to criticize you."



Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.  Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.  And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.  Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.  Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts.  And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Colossians 3:12-17

Water and God

I was glancing through my blog posts and I was reminded of this post.  It's one of my favorites... and I still am continually mesmerized by water and overwhelmed at the thought of it's power and similarity to God.  So I wanted to re-post it along with a song my husband sent me on you-tube last week that I've listened to several times lately.  Be blessed today!




I am mesmerized by water. Absolutely in awe of the stuff. I mean, think about it. Think about all the places all over the world that water is. It's in lakes, oceans, rivers; it's in ponds, sewers, mudpuddles, fire hydrants, camel humps; it's in toilets, showers, sinks; it's inside of us. And then think about water itself. There is something so calming and refreshing about water: a relaxing day fishing, a nice hot shower or cold shower after a good run, a wonderful day at the beach. And yet, there is something so powerful and terrible about water: a kayak careening out of control down an angry rapid river, a hurricane or huge waves of a tsunami, a person submerged in a body of water unable to swim, a power plant thriving on the dam it sits next to. Water is incredible. I love to be in water; I love boating and fishing and swimming, yet at any moment when I am doing any water activities I can be overtaken by an overwhelming sense of fear. Seriously, this happens to me every time I swim or boat or am near a large body of water. I feel safe, at ease, and carelessly and joyously am enjoying the day when suddenly my chest feels tight and I think, "What if I forget how to swim? What if the boat goes down? What if a storm suddenly comes up and the water surrounds me? What if I died in this water?" Soon I forget my fear and continue whatever I am doing, but later am in awe at the rapid way my thoughts changed. To me, water is like God. I mean think about it. Think about all the places God is. He is everywhere and touches everything, clean or unclean... just like water. And think about God Himself. There is something so calming and refreshing about our Maker, and yet there is something so powerful and terrible about Him. God is incredible. And much like water, God can be longed for, wanted and desired as in a time of drought, yet at the same time He can be feared and ran from like the fear of the coming of the rainy season before being fully prepared, or the coming of a storm with no shelter, or the fear of drowning in a lake with no life jacket. I am mesmerized with God. I love being in a relationship with Him the same as I love to be in water. Yet, I struggle similarly. I'll be feeling safe, at ease, and carelessly and joyfully enjoying life when suddenly my chest feels tight as I think about the future and I think, "What if I make a wrong decision? What if my dreams and all that I worked hard for falls down? What if a storm suddenly comes up and surrounds me? What if I lose those close to me?" It is interesting then to note that the more I dig into God in my moments of fear, I quickly lose my fear and continue whatever it is I am doing, and then later step back and look in awe at the rapid change of my thoughts and how easily I succumbed to fear and let it overtake me. And I realize that mine is a journey of trust. I am learning to love the water and yet be in awe and fear of its power and might, yet not dwell in that fear but trust that when I forget to swim that a life-jacket will be there, or when the storms come, that there will be something to hold on to so that I am not destroyed. Amazing, isn't it? Water is incredible. God is incredible.

Check out these incredible pictures of water... Clear, beautiful water, Dirty, mirky, contaminated water, Powerful, gorgeous water, Drops of Water, and Incredible, devastating water breaking everything in its path, and water calm enough to fill a bath and cleanse our hands. Water. God. Amazing.


















Monday, October 22, 2012

Choose Gratitude

Much time passes between my blog posts and it is difficult at times to write as I have so much to reflect on.  Today, this week, this month, my reflections have a recurrent theme: Gratitude.  And more specifically that gratitude is my choice.  Daily.  I have to actively choose gratitude everyday.  That is so much easier written or said than done.

In August Ryan and I went through an extremely difficult time.  We discovered we were pregnant in July and lost our sweet baby at the end of August.  We named her Lily Grace.  Some may find that crazy - we did not know for sure our baby's gender, but naming her brought peace and comfort.  In the middle of everything, when I knew something was wrong, I searched for hope and found an image of a gorgeous purple lily.  I started wearing purple to remind myself to hope.  To remind myself that God is still at work.  To remind myself that Lily is with Jesus.  To remind myself that God is the author of the story and that it's not over yet.  Ryan gifted me with a gorgeous purple ring that I daily wear to remind me of Lily and to remind me to hope.  



There are so many days where it is difficult to hope.  So many days find me despairing, mourning, tempting me to become bitter and angry and depressed.  Many days it hurts so much that I don't want to get out of bed.  And many times I have to remind myself that it's my choice.  I can choose to be ungrateful and selfish.  Or I can choose gratefulness and praise.


Today I choose gratitude.  


Here is a picture of my sweet one year old that I am so grateful for along with some scriptures and a quote I found this morning during my quiet time along with the song that has carried me through the past few weeks and months.  Tomorrow and each day following I want to choose to be grateful.  I want to choose to hope.  I want to choose to praise God despite the messy life and world we live in.




I will give thanks to the Lord because of his righteousness;
I will sing the praises of the name of the Lord Most High.

-Psalm 7:17

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
-2 Corinthians 4:16

Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
-Ephesians 5:19b-20

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
-Philippians 4:6-7

Pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
-1 Thessalonians 5:17-18

"To a significant degree, your emotional, mental, physical; spiritual well-being, as well as the health; stability of your relationships with others, will be determined by your gratitude quotient. Cultivating a thankful heart is a safeguard against becoming bitter, prickly; sour. A grateful child of God can’t help but be a joyful, peaceful, radiant person." -Nancy Leigh DeMoss

Wish it could be easy
Why is life so messy
Why is pain a part of us
There are days I feel like
Nothing ever goes right
Sometimes it just hurts so much
But You're here
You're real
I know I can trust You

Even when it hurts
Even when it's hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You
Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul
Healer of my scars
You steady my heart

I'm not gonna worry
I know that You got me
Right inside the palm of your hand
Each and every moment
What's good and what gets broken
Happens just the way that You plan
And I will run to You
You're my refuge in Your arms
And I will sing to You
Cause of everything You are

You steady my heart 

-Kari Jobe

May you choose gratitude today, too.
Be blessed!