Saturday, January 26, 2008

some quotes

Pain is God's megaphone.
-C. S. Lewis

There is some aspect of my life in which God is calling me to walk with and to Him, and when I say "YES!" to His calling, it sets in motion a divine dynamic far beyond merely human power. ...Obedience is no guarantee of being spared adversity.
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John Ortberg

It's not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena... who, at best, knows in the end the triumph of great achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly. So that his place will never be with those cold timid souls who know neither victory or defeat.
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Theodore Roosevelt

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

tis so sweet to trust in Jesus!!

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives: he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." -Matthew 7:7-8-

I never really realized how dangerous it is to ask God for things or to seek Him... because His promise IS true. When you ask you receive. When you seek you find. It's dangerous. There's a Relient K song that talks about how I don't know what I'm getting myself into... and sometimes that's so the truth.

Lately I've been asking God to make me into a woman of wisdom. James 3:17-18 says: "But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness." In a Bible Study with several of the dear women in my life here on campus, we had a revelation. If we want to be wise we have to be all of these things... and to rate ourself on a scale of wisdom, we can figure out where we're at by looking at the inverse of those characteristics of wisdom and then see which ones are in our lives so we can rid ourselves of them. So let's see... there's the opposite of pure, which would be impurity both in action physically and in thoughts and comments both an area I struggle with, there's the opposite of peace-loving which would be somebody who's not peaceful. Girls are good at being drama queens, stirring up dissension... I need to rid myself of anything that doesn't cause peace. Then there's the opposite of considerate which would include being rude, or possibly even making others feel uncomfortable even if it's funny... I can be good at that and wow, that's so not wise! There's the opposite of submission... which would include pride, there's the opposite of being full of mercy and good fruit which I think a big area I struggle with is being judgmental. It's sooo easy to judge people and that's not wise! And often it's incredibly foolish because my presumptions are way off and I need to give others the benefit of the doubt. And the opposite of impartial is showing favorites, and the opposite of being sincere is being fake... not real. How easy it is to cover up what's going on and pretend like I've got it all together. And finally, people who cultivate wisdom in their life are peacemakers. Am I truly a peacemaker?

So I've been considering all this and praying that God would help me to be wise, that I could truly rid myself of these attributes because before I can work on cultivating purity, peace, consideration, submission, mercy, good fruit, impartiality, and sincerity I first have to stop being impure, a drama queen, rude, inconsiderate, selfish, proud, judgmental, a favorites player, jealous, and fake. And I have been wowed in the process. Since I began praying that God would help me to become a wise woman He has asked me to obey Him at least 3 times.

In each of the situations I feel like Esther, the woman my Bible Study for this week thus far has focused on. Esther was put in a unique situation and had an incredible choice to make. She could choose to go to the King and put her own life on the line in a radical attempt to save her people and make a difference for them, or she could choose to be selfish and not do that. I love what Mordecai says to her in Esther 4:13-14: "Do not think that because you are in the king's house you alone of all the Jews will escape. For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?" Wow... even had Esther chosen to not obey God's leading and go to the King, God still would have been faithful and provided a way to save His people... but the story probably wouldn't have been as cool.

And then I think about Moses... how when God called him in the Burning Bush Moses said, "God I can't do that!!" And then he argues... "Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?... "What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say 'The Lord did not appear to you'?"... "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue." Moses hardcore doubts God in these 3 passages throughout his encounter with God at the bush. (Exodus 3:11, 4:1, 4:10) And yet God uses him!! Moses doubts the first time and God's like, dude Moses... I got ya. He doubts again and God's like... ok buddy, check out that staff in your hand... you can have miracles as proof that I'm who I say I am and that I'll do what I say I'll do. And Moses doubts a third time and God's like... are you kidding me!?! I gave you your mouth!! I'll give you the words!! And then... wow, Moses says this: "O Lord, please send someone else to do it." (Exodus 4:13) It says that the Lord's anger burned against Moses, but then he tells Moses he'll send Aaron, Moses' brother with him.

How would the story have been different had Moses stepped up to the challenge the first time God called him and not doubted? What if there were no crazy miracles or Aaron in the story? How much more crazy would the story have been? Would God have been glorified in Moses' life in an even greater way than He was? And yet, the part that amazes is me is that God still used Moses!! God still worked in spite of Moses' doubts and fears. And God promised that even had Esther not been the one to carry out his plan that He'd devise another plan and bring redemption from elsewhere. Huh. Crazy to think about. Makes me want to be an Esther... to get in on all the action possible. Makes me sad about the way I've not been obedient in the past, yet hopeful because tomorrow (even in the few minutes left in today) I can obey Him the first time even if it rips me up inside!!

Remember that verse I started with? If we ask we'll receive, if we seek we'll find? I'm not wise yet, but I'm definitely receiving and finding. I asked God to make me wise and so He put me in three huge places where I had the option of obeying Him or not. Sure, He'd still go with me if I didn't say yes, but it could be so much better if I just said yes. So I said yes.
1. I'm an RA for Freshmen Girls.
2. I'm single. (That sounds kinda weird, but I almost wasn't.)
3. I gave my favorite Bible away Sunday.
The first one was a huge sacrifice, but a sweet experience and I was and am really excited to be where I am. The second one hurt like crazy... worse than anything before, but once I finally obeyed... after a few days of not obeying and toying with the idea of being selfish and following me, God totally filled me with peace. That's still hard and yeah, being single sucks. (Pardon the strength of that word... but it does.) But it's right right now. And the third one, I can't even describe how hard that was and how much it still hurts. I'm so excited for Ashley and I know that God will transform her as she reads the word and I'm sooo excited for her, but I miss that book. The past 3 years are in those pages. When Grandma got cancer until she died there are so many verses I highlighted and wrote memos about in the margins. I gave that away and I don't want to forget. Egypt's there. Before Tomorrow is there. People I was praying for are there. But my dear friend Allison is right. That book isn't the sole Word of God and the Bible I'm using now is the same... and it's ok!! And I'm learning to trust in God in the craziest hardest way I ever have before. And I guess all I can say is that although it hurts... it's so sweet.

Funny story... Sunday after I gave the Bible away I was crying and just sad realizing what I'd just done... not at all regreting it... I hope that makes sense... I wouldn't take it back if Ashley tried to give it to me... but I've just never been asked to make such a sacrifice before. I'm crying and the guys in my band are like "Was that a special Bible?" Ha... duh! And Harrison's like, "Kara let's cheer you up and sing a song!" I'm like... "Dude, Harold I don't wanna sing." And so he's like, "Ok, I'll sing for you..."

Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus!
Just to take Him at His word!
Jesus Jesus... How I trust Him...
How I've proved Him o'er and o'er!!

Tears just flowed... Harrison's like, "Kara, was that the wrong song!?! I'm sooo sorry I'll sing a different one!!" And I'm like, "No, please, Harrison... sing it again!" Grandma told me that over and over and over again... "Tis SO sweet to trust in Jesus!" When she died her last words to me were, "Kara Joy, I love you. Keep trusting Jesus. Never stop loving Jesus. Keep trusting Jesus." I promised her I would, and so I am.

I hurt, but it is SO sweet to trust in Jesus.
Do it. It'll rip you up, and it's dangerous cuz He's so real...
But it's SO worth it.
-Kara Joy

Monday, January 14, 2008

a bit of an update...

Thanksgiving and Christmas have come and gone. January is well under way, and my blog is greatly lacking in post updates. Lately, life is good. It's hard. It's stressful, but God is faithful and I'm making it through. I have the awesome, incredible privilege of being an RA for freshmn girls and a few transfers this semester, including an old dear friend: Brittany Bailey. :) I am taking some crazy fun classes that I never thought I would be able to be a part of, and I feel as if I am being stretched from the inside-out and somehow becoming a better person due to that which I am learning and about to learn. It's really exciting. However, I find myself often frustrated at the ignorance I see in society around me, or not so much ignorance as just a lack of understanding or lack of desire to relate with those around us who are different from us. Why is it so difficult to look past our self and see someone else truly for who they are? What will it take for us as Americans to lay aside ourselves and see the world from a different perspective? I hear talk all the time about having a "Biblical Worldview". I do not doubt that this is crucial and necessary, but why are we not allowed to even consider that there could possibly be an Islamic Worldview, an eastern worldview, a western worldview, a Buddhist, Hindu, Jewish, and so many other worldviews that may not necessarily be wrong? Why does a "Biblical Worldview" trump all, especially when it just seems to be a "Western Worldview" in disguise? Jesus wasn't western. Does he demand of all to be western, to follow the bible to the latter? What would he do? How would he view the world?
I just find myself frustrated and asking questions like this over and over again. I just want people to understand each other. To get along, to live peacefully accepting and tolerating each other. How do we do that? We are not the only ones in the world that are right. Why can't we see that? Maybe things will never change... but what if they could? What if I could truly help people understand each other? I dream that someday we will reach a point not just where we tolerate each other, but that we desire relationship with others who are different from us and we strive to understand each other and live in peace with one another. That would be the day!
So... that's a little tidbit from my life lately. Not much else to say. I went to a Mock Presidential Campaign shin dig slash debate tonight, and it was really interesting. The Illinois primary is coming up!! I don't take a side yet... but I think Obama had a lot of great things to say.
Ok... time for me to leave the RA office. Resuming homework is next on the agenda. I'll probably say more soon... Much love,
Kara Joy

Sunday, November 18, 2007

pictures from october and november...

Ok well the guy finished his printing, I printed what I needed to but now I forget what I was about to share. So... instead, I thought I'd share lots of pictures from the past month. So much has happened... here's some good ones.

Missy came to town!! She and I took Allison out for a night in celebration of the wedding just around the corner!! Wow... she's gonna be Mrs. Keith Davenport. How crazy is that!?!

Chris, Liz, Harrison and I led worship for Indi West Side's Fall Retreat a few weeks ago...

Joey came to Ft. Wayne!!! :) That's me and Joey. :)

Mallory came to town!! And guess what!?! SHE'S GONNA HAVE A BABY!!!!!!!!! :)

And this is a wretched picture of Mallory but check out her belly!! There's a baby in there!! :)

So... I made it onto the Homecoming Court and these are all my dear lady friends who came over to help me get ready.

And here all of us are!! From left to right: Heather, Genesis, Katie, me and Allison. :)

And the kewlest part about homecoming is that my whole family came!! :)

We threw a little pie party afterwards... and it was so fun!! Oh I just love these people!

Friday morning the five of us participated in the ground breaking for the Centennial Chapel that's about to be built.

Homecoming was the 100 year anniversary for Olivet... so there was a huge INCREDIBLE firework display Friday night after the basketball game... it was awesome!! :)

These pictures are a little out of order but this is at the powderpuff football game Friday afternoon... and the Seniors totally won!!


This is me and two little girls from my MOPS group at the basketball game... we were singing "I'm Gonna Walk" together. :)

Here's all of us ladies at the game... and my favorite part is our Dads in the background. :)

Saturday morning we all woke up early to run the 5K... which we ended up cutting short so that we could cheer for everyone. This lady, Mrs. Woodruff, was our favorite.

Last weekend... JOSH AND AMY GOT MARRIED!!!!!!!! It was SO beautiful!!

This is Kyle... he went to the wedding with me when Jonathan didn't. It was a great time.

And these are my boys... Chris, Tyler, Tim, Harrison and Jeremiah. This weekend we played at Peru, Illinois in a church plant while the pastor was on maternity leave. And then we stopped in to see new baby Abigail. It was good.

And now I have to jet so that I can get everything done before I leave for break tomorrow. I love you!! See you soon!! :)
-Kara Joy

Thursday, November 15, 2007

a quick post

While I wait, insha'allah, for someone to finish printing so that I can jump on the printer and copy pages to study for my Exegesis, I just thought I'd drop by and say hi! Ha... I'm a poet and I didn't even mean it slash know it cuz know it rhymes better than mean it. Wow... it's late and I'm crazy.
So... it's been a while. Life is good. Senior year is FLYING by. I can't believe it... and really, I don't want to think about it. So much has happened since my last post, and I've got some great pictures to go along with it. But I guess I'll just say that God is faithful. Ya know what I'm saying? Like... so many times this semester have I doubted him... both directly and indirectly... (by that I mean like to his face and then not as obviously), and despite my unbelief he has remained faithful to me. I've seen him working in those around me and I sense that He is heavily working on me. Get specific Kara... well, ok but I don't really have time to right now cuz the guy is almost done on the printer. And I have to go because the library closes at midnight.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

new babies in the family... and God IS faithful

Today I am overwhelmed by God's faithfulness. Often I doubt Him and He reminded me in a vivid way this weekend that He DOES listen, He DOES work even when I don't see Him, and He IS faithful. So I'm trying to trust in Him and live in that trust rather than the doubt.

The past two weekends I had the opportunity to hold some of my cousins beautiful babies and kiss and love on them for just a few minutes each... but it was such precious time. :) These are some pictures for you. Aren't they beautiful!?! I want babies!! :)

Meet little Ella Love...

I got to help give her a bath. She loves baths. And going to bed... crazy child!

And this... This is the newest member of the Nelson clan... little Braden Emry. How precious!!



Oh how I love my cousins. I can't WAIT to meet new little baby Michal. :) I'm sure she's precious as well!! I love you family. And I miss you so much!! Keep loving our Jesus!! He is so good and God is SO faithful!! May He be praised!!


Clinging to the Cross... Tim Hughes
My soul is weak my heart is numb
I cannot see
But still my hope is found in You
I hold on tightly
You will never let me go
Jesus You will never fail
Jesus, You will never fail!

Simply to the cross I cling
Letting go of all earthly things
I'm clinging to the cross
Mercy's found a way for me
Hope is here as I am free
Jesus You are all I need
I'm clinging to the cross

Even darkness is as light
to You my Lord
So light the way
and lead me home
To that place where
every tear is wiped away
For Jesus, You will never fail
Jesus, You will never fail!

Simply to the cross I cling
Letting go of all earthly things
I'm clinging to the cross
Mercy's found a way for me
Hope is here as I am free
Jesus You are all I need
I'm clinging to the cross

What a Savior!
What a story!
You were crucified
Now You are alive!
So amazing, such a mystery
You were crucified
Now You are alive!

Simply to the cross I cling
Letting go of all earthly things
I'm clinging to the cross
Mercy's found a way for me
Hope is here as I am free
Jesus You are all I need
I'm clinging to the cross

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

fall break hot shots!! :)

So here's some hot shots from the past week... this weekend was Fall Break... it was SO good to get to go home and see my family and good friends!! I got to hang out with James, Caleb's birthday was Friday, I had a hot date with Anna, we all went to dinner at my favorite Mexican Restaurant after church together... I went to Taylor and visited some dear MESPers, ate dinner with Aunt Judi and Uncle Dick, got to see Grandma and give baby Ella a bath. It was a great weekend!! Oh and then today I cleaned the tub and organized a little in the house. It's good to be back. :)

Kevin and Victoria Sprague came to ONU for a college visit and took Wes, Brian, Jonathan and I out for dinner at Brickstone!! It was superb!! Thanks sooo much!! :)

Happy Birthday little kid!!

Anna and I dyed our hairs... mines so dark... hers is so hot!! :)

Caleb at La Cherrada's... Sunday morning... what a goofy little kid he is!! :)

Aunt Judi, Aunt Nancy, and Momma visiting with Grandma Nelson in Ft. Wayne!!

Me and my Grandma Nelson!! :)

FISHAR!!!! :) BETH AND EMILY!!! :)

my buddy beth at taylor :)