figuring it all out... :)

so this weekend was a blast singing and being with the choir. i have a few more pictures to share with you but i'm not in my room right now so i can't post them at the moment. i also super cleaned and did my laundry and PUT IT ALL AWAY!!! this weekend. praise the Lord. cleanness is soooo wonderful!!! (yes mommers, i just said "cleanness is wonderful" ha!)

registration is today and this whole next week and lately (well, all year... no, actually for as long as i can remember) i've been really praying and seeking direction about my life. i'm a social work major, and i love it... but i have room for something else. i want to study abroad next year in the spring and there are two places that i am trying to decide between going to. one would be latin america. if i went there, then i could add spanish as a double major because i would have enough credits to do so. or i'm thinking about the middle east. not only would i have an opprotunity to learn arabic (although not sure how much i would be able to learn), i would learn about the history of my faith as a christian, and about muslims and jews and their beliefs. then i would possibly have an international buisness/ missions/ something minor to go with social work. i really want to be a missionary. there is this desire deep within me that just wants to go... and i feel like God has called me into the mission field, but that he's also using me as a missionary right here in bourbonnais. it's really scary to think about... but i am going to be praying and seeking his face and you know what? if God wants me to be in latin america then i believe my passion for spanish will return and he will make it clear that he wants me to go. and if God wants me to go to the middle east, then he will continue to call me and pull me in that direction. that decision is really scary for me... it's dangerous to go there... and i won't go unless God calls me, but i know that if i seek him now that he WILL clearly lead me and not forsake me no matter what i decide.
here are some pictures of the middle east and then of latin america. i ask you, my blogging family, to lift me up in prayer as you have time or remember. pray that God would reveal to me his plan for my life... not the whole plan, but that he would guide me in my decisions about education, classes and studying abroad. and pray that i wouldn't get off course or distract myself with the excitement of going somewhere new, but that i would focus on being a social worker and desiring to find where God can best use me as an agent of his love and life.

there are several choruses i'd like to leave you with that i keep singing over and over and over again. i love you. be blessed! :)

tell me why
i don't understand
tell me why
or show my your hand
tell me why because i can't see my way through
what now, should i do?

i will go where you want me to go
i will do what you want me to do
yes, i will go! where you want me to go
i will be who you want me to be
anything for you...
every step i take
every move i make
you are by my side
and i will be strong
my strength is in you!

you lived!
you died!
and you rose again on high!
and you opened the way
for the world to live again
hallelujah!
for all you've done!