so i've been working on sister 2 sister for the past few days, and i am exhausted and so excited and not nearly where i want to be yet. i've listened to these next two songs by supertones over and over again tonight. the bold... yeah, that's my cry out tonight. that's where my heart is. i wanna see a life change through this program, i wanna see a new man... in myself and in each and every mentee, mentor, and sponsor. i wanna be like Jesus and i wanna pour my heart out to these women... to this program... to those that need it... i wanna pour my heart out. but then... what do i know? i can't do this on my own. i need his help. it's crazy to me... why did he choose me? i'm such a poor reflection. why use me to make himself known? yet... he's right there, lifting me up... making me like him. dad was talking to me this weekend about the four different personality types there are and we were talking about my roommates and who he thought each of us were... and as we struggled to define each of us (rachel, alli, amandolin and myself) he said... "you know, i think the more that we are like Christ the more that we are all four of the personality types because the more we are like Christ. he was all of them. he was an otter with the people, he was a golden retriever with his disciples, he was a lion in the temple, and he was the other one (i personally don't know them so i'm messing up this quote, but he gave a good example of each one and when Jesus was each one)." as i think about that and how bad i am at reflecting him, i think about how he HAS chosen me, how he HAS called me to be used to make himself known, and the more i dive into him, the more he will give me the strength and the ability to be whatever he needs me to be in any and every circumstance "so that by all possible means i might save some". check out these two songs....
i wanna do the right thing
i wanna be the sure shot
i wanna have my mind straight
i wanna have my point got
i wanna be a good man
i wanna have my act down
i wanna be the future
and i wanna be right now
sometimes i feel like i could change the world
but i don't know where to start
i dig and come up empty, clutching an empty heart
i wanna see a life change
i wanna see a new man
i wanna fight the good fight
i wanna take the right stand
i wanna be like Jesus
i wanna pour my heart out
i wanna pick my cross up
i wanna hear the mob shout
i'm wide awake and thinking about the cross
the trinity apart
i dig and come up empty, clutching an empty heart
i wanna do the right thing
i wanna be the sure shot
i wanna have my mind straight
i wanna have my point got
i wanna be like Jesus
i wanna pour my heart out
i wanna pick my cross up
i wanna hear the mob shout
sometimes i feel like i could change the world
but i don't know where to start... i dig and come up empty
i'm wide awake and thinking about the cross
the trinity apart... i dig and come up empty
clutching a sacred heart
what do i know? somebody tell me. i've been runnin from you for so long. please help me Lord find my direction... i just can't do it on my own. you lift me up, you rescue me, it's good to be with you old friend.
sometimes i think how can you love me? my thoughts are so far from your own. why choose me Lord? i'm a poor reflection. why use me to make yourself known? you lift me up, you rescue me, it's good to be with you old friend. you lift me up, you rescue me, the cross you bore on calvary.
1 comment:
Amen. I love hearing about the different attributes of Christ. Some people focus on only one attribute while disregarding the full depth and breadth of who he was and is. Amazing.
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